-bleh-

I'm sorry but I am just having a 'bleh' day. Wtf is bleh anyway??? A time when.. no words can come out straight I guess and you wanna put it into words but of course it's not the same as bla bla..

See I just cant get to bed.. I wanna think about a whole bunch of stuff.. but I know once my head is down on that pillow, I won't stop. I'll keep connecting the dots.. the never ending stream, relating one event in my life to another- to why.. to why not.. why can't I just let it all go ??
Ok, yes I am a firm believer in constructive criticism, but exactly when does my own criticism of myself stop?

I am never at peace with myself. I see a 100 mistakes each day that I can't forgive myself for and then I go onto the next day still thinking about them.. making more along the way. Iam growing, obviously; learning what to do and what not to do.. but gah, I can't accept who I was ..or maybe who I'm becoming.

I try to weigh it out, balance it, punish myself or suffer the consequences of the bad decisions in my life.. maybe that way there's justice to the matter, or so I believe in my head.

I'm hurting. Definately.

Void

Ever feel a void?
It's a big empty space..

Do you wake all alone? And wonder where you are? - 'Slide', Goo goo dolls

You assign different people that you talk to about different issues or topics in your life.. and yet there's that one topic you just can't find the right person to talk to about that one thing. Annoying? very.

Snow

the awesomeness of your first snowfall cannot be explained. it depends on several factors- what you imagine to be that perfect moment.
the image you've seen on christmas cards, the romantic movies with lovers out in the cold, driving in a huge van looking for a cabin, snowflakes on ur eyelashes and hair.. or whatever.

one thing it truly is- Magical.

for moments all you can do is stare and smile, its glittering and sparkling at you, vague yet bright lights reflecting of the tiny ice particles all over the place .. there's jst a sense of happiness that fills you that you just can't explain.

Snow .. =)

Reality Check

So I've been told this alot.
'You need to stop caring so much about what everyone thinks'
And I've always believed I didnt but you know what I'm going to admit it .. yes I have.

Ok now you'll can all go "haha I told you so" and "oh look at her now".. but I dont care, cos as of today I really am not going to do that.

There's 3 things I love in this world, my family, my bf and my closest of friends.
There's 3 things I want to do in this world, Study and do my best in uni, Be as close as I can to the daughter my parents want me to be and always be there for my bf and when I can, for my friends.

That's it.
So, screw everything else that I've ever worried about because it's jst not worth it.

Ode to bus rides

Bus rides are fun. In school they were fun, on camps they were fun, on excursions they were fun. At WYD, they were super fun.

It's definately something I'm going to miss. I mean I dont think the next couple years of my life involves riding buses with multiple groups of people while it lasted it was awesome. For that 2-3 hour journey, you're stuck with the person next to you..so whether you like them or not is not something your neccessarily going to get to comment on.
So, you make the effort. You talk it out, bout the weirdest topics, strange or not..you don't care as long as the conversation gets going..

Our bus rides were awesome. From the airport in Sydney, to Newcastle. We sang, chanted.. laughed. The next four days involved more bus rides..more counting the number of ppl on board..more blowing of the horn from the driver to get us back on..more sightseeing..but still back to the bus. It turned out fun all the time, especially when someone got their deck of cards out.. was awesome.

Im going to miss bus rides. Alot.


[yes, this blog is about a bus ride..believe it or not]

Kriskin

... is this amazing kid who will be turning 2 on July 5th. He is my piano teacher's son and one of the most adorable kid's you will ever meet.
He know's like all the names of all the cars by looking at thier logos.. in fact when I took them for a drive he looked at my steering wheel and squealed 'misibishi' hehe.
HE IS ADORABLE. My name was the first of her student's name's he had learnt.. pronounced Jolala.. hehe which is so cute coming from him .. and guess what, he looked forward to me coming for class and considering I came a lot - that wasnt a problem. When she took him for walks.. he knew where our house was.. and our car park ..and suddenly every car park in Karama.. then became the property of Jolala... .. After class, I'd go over to his play mat and play with toys.. .. neways.. then he learnt, to say Jonthin so now we are known as Jonthin and Jolala..which is quite funny.

Anyways, yest I said goodbye to them cos they left for holiday and will only be back in September..and I wont get to see them till next year which is quite sad. I will dearly miss him.. and not just him, her too. I love my piano teacher.

omg I cant believe I had only one post in June hahahahahahaha

summer..

summer has not been fun so far.. well sometimes it has, but not mostly..
mostly it's been this bid to get things done that have been pending in my house... you know, throwing out the hoarded stuff.. the old books, new furniture (yay) .. yet Ive not woken one day feeling its holidays..
I've had so much to do.. and having a countdown honestly makes time go faster..

I do remember, an awesome dinner at Jhonny Carinos where I couldn't stop acting mad and laughing..
I remember meeting an old friend after a year and feeling good bout it.
I remember dropping my friends to the park..
Summer has been alot of driving.. and that's what Ive loved the most..
really, despite many people believing I cant, I do believe I can.. and I love it..

it's been most fun- I've gotten lost.. hahah and I wanted to take everyone on drives so I even made Jason ( a friend of mine who works in Jebel Ali) come all the way from there in his company bus till my house so I could take him for a movie n drop him home :D ooh that was fun..
The Incredible Hulk- I quite enjoyed it.. I really did infact, see, I didn't see the first one..so I had nothing to compare it with which is what made it better for me I guess - it's kinda nice not having expectations. (only to some extent, dont quote me on this one)

Summer so far, has also been shopping... and mandy becky time..which Ive wanted for sooo long.. Becky's gotten too comfy in my car..I must say. hahha!

ooh yay, I started this new blog thinking of how bad summer's been so far.. but its been pretty okay... except for the regrettable always having stuff to do argh..

Summer was... 'Edge'. heheh

Boards done

so....tana..... my boards are done.. at last.
Once again, it's been a month since Ive penned aka typed out bits of my life..

It feels like I can breathe again, and yet, not so much.
I had fun today. Jhonny Carino's was funnnnnnnnnnnnnnn fun fun

had heaps n heaps of fun and I love Barry's driving- he absolutely economise petrol though so don't bother letting him drive if u have like that 1/2 inch of petrol left :P but otherwise we're good. stuffed 8 people in his car today and laughed our asses offffff like mad people in a moving truck :P it was like our old days again, where it didn't matter what we did or where we did it as long as we all hung out together :) :D

till next time cos Im way toooo tired

Beautiful People

Very recently, a young girl died at our school due to heart problems that were (as I have heard) hereditary. How does one cope with a loss like that?
All I can do is pray for her mum .. who has lost her husband, 2 sons and now her only daughter to the same 'hereditary' problem. What stood out about her is her uniqueness, and her kindness.. everyone who misses her have spoken about it.

This made me thing of other people I've lost..

Just the November before last, I had a close friend who passed away. I missed him soo much, cos he'd take my brother and I to church every saturday in his car, he was only 21.. everything he had done in his life... he had done himself. He passed away due to Cancer. I still miss him, when I pass his house, when I see his mum, when I see his brother, when I see any Peugeot 307 infact... I love him as a person. He never knew when his life would be over, it was always an uncertain day- anything could happen any time. He was amazing, so humble, he never complained about what he went through... people who knew his story ..I think they saw him differently .. but minus that he was just like any of my friends.. wanting to go out to the same places... what stood out was his love for God though. It was different from any other friend I've known and it made him love himself and everyone else in a unbiased unjudgmental way.

Last summer, I lost my grandma, and I miss her so much. When I was young I used to write to her and fill the page with 'I love you's' that Meant So Much. In every 'I love you' there was an I miss you included and a hug... and the smell of her that I missed so much. She was amazing.. well to me =) She still is.. I know she prays for me.. I know she is proud of me.. I forget her sometimes.. in the course of my mundane life.. but she doesn't forget me. I'm sure. When she left us, it felt like the end of a huge era.. yet the next day life went on.. cars moved.. birds flew.. sun was shining.. it was tough. We were there by her side all the time when we went to visit. What I saw was incredible- the relationship between my mum and her mum. Growing up, she took care of my mum, and now it was my mum who was taking care of her. It was a beautiful thing to see. I can't even explain it. There was a conection between them.. that was remarkable. Now she's gone but I'm never going to forget any of this. What stood out about her was she was Always giving.. to anyone, everyone.. she had the biggest heart and she did Everything for her family. And I'm not just saying that, even her local butcher, shopkeeper, shoe seller - they all respected her because she made the effort to be kind to all of them. I love her. Anything I did to upset her, I wish I hadn't.

Here's to the people we've loved and lost due to the inevitable.

I want to have 'what stood out about me'.. factors one day too. I don't want to be just another.. somebody. I hope I can accomplish that somehow somewhere along the way.

(p.s- i love you nana)

Past

Okay, here's the blog where I actually blog, cos I feel like just speaking my mind and I'm in a somewhat calm state compared to my usual disposition and I'm able to to take in my surroundings.
The past two months have been a blur, I really don't know where I've been or what I've been doing. I don't know what I've eaten, can't remember what I've read, don't remember where I drove, don't remember going to class, can't figure out what I taught the kids, can't remember who came for piano classes, don't remember playin the piano and don't remember what I did on weekends. Oddly, though, all that I've mentioned is all that I've done in the last 2 months. Where has my mind been?

In this other galaxy. Meaning, I've done exactly what I'm Not supposed to do. I've worried. I've thought about the past sooo many times. A good blog of Ritesh's that I particularly like, (http://withoutanoilwell.blogspot.com/2008/03/dwell-in-past.html) speaks about how we dwell so much in the past, and I found the reason why I've been doing it- the answer too is in his blog,
"It's not easy not to dwell in your past that you hope is your present and remains your future forever. The whole fact that one wants to live in the past is because the present is not one bit he/she wants it to be." (courtesy Ritesh J.)

Again, ironically enough I replied to that blog commenting that I did dwell in the past and sought to change so I don't miss out on the future and here I am admitting defeat to what's hardly as capable as I think. I referred to a quote(sticker) that says:
'sometimes we need to analyzing the [past]..stop planning the [future]..stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel...stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel...Sometimes we just have to go with whatever happens, happens.'

Putting it more into perspective- I don't agree with the above statement completely. Yes we can't dwell soo much that we lose out on the present as noted. But we do need to stop and smell the roses.. or so to speak, stop and take in what's going on. You shouldnt decide what your heart should feel, let it decide for you.. most of the time it's right. You can't always go with 'whatever happens, happens' because according to the great William Tell (nt sure of this, I may be wrong) it is the only way to be 'masters of our fate, captain of or souls'...

I guess it does matter though, that I do recognise what I've been doing and recognise that the time I've spent dwelling on the past is time that Could Have been spent to better my future.
...

and so I will make more effort to shorten that 'added' waste of time.

Better

Everyday the doubts build up,
the questions never stop.

I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
then I met you.

Will I make it through?
Do I have what it takes to get by?
Am I really geared for what awaits me?

I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
then I met you.

Can I survive on my own?
Am I capable of making decisions without facing serious repercussions?
The doubt has built up so much that it starts to seep into my thoughts,
CAN 'I' do it?

I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
then I met you.

Your pulling me up for every little thing,
You dont think I can handle the inevitable.
You dont pull me from the wreckage,
You push me down further, and then stand on top,
watching me struggle out.
Which I can do...

but then again,
I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
then I met you.

You've always wanted her.
I've felt it from the look in your eyes.
So it wasn't new to my ears when you said it out loud.
But, I was suprised you did say it out loud.

I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
then I met you.

You want me to be her.
Smart, Obedient, Attentive, Diligent,
Perfect in every way- in your eyes.
The one you never had.

but I won't. I am me.
Although,
I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
I met you...
and I've been driven to be better than her
but in my own way.

A dedication to his father

http://www.arsenal.com/article.asp?thisNav=News&article=491323&lid=NewsHeadline&Title=Wenger+moves+to+bring+Vela+into+the+Arsenal+fold

Carlos Vela

Carlos Alberto Vela Garrido (born March 1, 1989 in Cancún, Quintana Roo) is a Mexican football player who plays for Osasuna on loan from Arsenal. He predominantly plays as a winger, although Arséne Wenger has described him as more of a striker similar to Eduardo.
Named by British tabloid The Sun as one of the 20 young players to watch in 2008 [2], Carlos Vela is the younger brother of Alejandro Vela, who plays for Jaguares in the Mexican football league. Vela's career started with Guadalajara, alongside his brother. Even though he had not made his debut on Chivas' first division team, his big break came when he participated in the U-17 World Cup with the Mexican national team. Vela helped the Mexican team win the 2005 FIFA U-17 World Championship against other promising teams, including Brazil. He became a pivotal figure during the match against Brazil, by defeating the South American team 3-0 during the tournament's final. Along the conclusion of the 2005 World Cup in Peru, Vela was named the top scorer of the tournament with 5 goals and claimed the Adidas Golden Boot. Eventually after the World Cup, Jorge Vergara, owner and president of Chivas de Guadalajara, offered to sign him, and, since the Vela family lived in the then-recently-storm-stricken Cancún, Quintana Roo, Carlos Vela asked that as a condition to his signing with Guadalajara, the club also help relocate his family. He had also previously showed his great affection to his father, whose birthday fell on the day on which Mexico beat Brazil in the final for the World Cup, by carrying the cup to his father as a birthday present and dedicating his Golden Boot to him
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carlos_Vela

Another reason why I love Arsenal
Our players have character

My fav football team

so ..to everyone else's great joy and pride and ofcourse, in the name of team spirit.. they'll be more than happy to remind me how Arsenal didn't win the the Premier league and will definately be not winning the Champions League either. But you know what I still support them.

here are just a few reasons why:
1. They Do play good football
2. They do perform well as a team... - yes we did have an overdose of Henry staging everything but they still played briliant when he left. The fact that they were in first place through the beginning of the 2007-2008 season is enough proof of that.
3. They do Not boast the enormity of their club name .. boast being the key word, pride is a different issue.
4. They have Arsene Wenger- pillar of football histoire and miraculous at coaching.
5. Most imp reason: They are a family. I honestly dont see that zeal or look of .. lets kill the other team in their eyes. Yes it may not bring as many trophies home but I think they do a darn good job being a member of the big 4 (Man U, Chelsea, Arsenal and Liverpool).
I really feel this awe when I watch them play.. they enjoy the game, play from their heart, they are like a band of brothers in unison out there.. I jst cant help but love them :)

(note: my blog, my opinion) - not backed by facts :D

Intuition

Intuition is the act by which the mind perceives the agreement or disagreement of two ideas. When using only intuition, the truth of the proposition is immediately known right then, the moment it is presented. This is without the intervention of other ideas or deductive reasoning.
Intuition differs from opinion in the sense that intuition is a way of experiencing, while opinion is based on experience. Intuition also differs from instinct, which does not necessarily have the experiential element at all. A person who has an intuitive basis for an opinion probably cannot fully explain immediately why he or she holds that view. However, a person may try to justify an intuitive decision by developing a chain of logic to demonstrate more structurally why the decision is valid - Wikipedia

It is "the immediate apprehension of an object by the mind without the intervention of any reasoning process" [Oxford English Dictionary].


I think intuition is in us all.. and if we listened to it more we could make better decisions. But most of the time we're too scared becos we don't knw where its cming from.. I mean noone else has said it, or observed it, its just like an omnious hunch you have and you suspect something may go wrong if you dont listen to it..

I quite like it. I've found on several occasions when I haven't heeded it- I've fallen out or lost something..

So from now on I'm going to try it more.

(Note: This is different from conscience.)

Ive been missed..

It's been more than a month since Ive blogged due to everything in my head being in overdrive but now I'm back and I've missed it..

My Best Friend's Driving Skills

I love sittin in the front seat of a car. I always have..

Okay it's obvious that this blog has been sparked by Barry getting his license and the fact that I've been living in and out of his car for the past week .. (or Ritesh's) but there something nice and soothing bout Barry's driving... we may have no idea where the heck we're going yet he's got this amazing grasp that the journey should be smooth. It comes from an appreciation of a car I guess.

I mean if you had a pet you'd take care of it to great lengths (to those of us who love our pets that is) so inevitably if you had a car you'd do the same..
warm it up for 5mins every morning.. drive smoothly..brake gently ..check out ur engine.. get your servicing done..ur battery constantly checked..etc etc.

I love being on a long road with the ac on ..and just driving. I guess it comes from when I was young. My family and I would always go for drives..really long ones..right down Sheikh Zayed..till Hatta.. on weekends we'd hit Baracuda..Fujeirah ..and the sort..and I loved my dads driving..since I was a kid.. (except for recently where Ive experienced more of his lets get from A to B FAST) ...but aside that I jst love being there. I feel like thats where I can think.. its where I can relax..I dont have to do anything as such..but I get to sit and be chauffeur driven.. (ok no offense ..) :) and its amazing..esp when you have someone who's got your fav songs on their playlist.

So here's to Barrys' driving. Amazing relaxing time.

Nowhere Fast

"I take a look around; it´s evident the scene has changed.And there are times when I feel improved, improved upon the past.Then there are times when I can´t seem to understand at alland yes it seems as though I´m goin nowhere...really fucking fast, nowhere fast."
- Nowhere Fast, Incubus

Ever felt like you have all the plans for your life set out.. your life's goals.. your ways to set about achieving them... or if not.. you have some kind of idea what you wanna be ...
yet you have this moment ..or time lapse of moments ..(plural) where you just cant seem to find the direction of your decisions?

What do you do then? Where do you go from them?

I've been avoiding bloggin cos I'm been at a lack of what to say. How do I put into words the fact that I feel brain dead..in every aspect. I know what I need to achieve, I know my targets yet I cant seem to get myself to sit down and focus on them...despite having alot of time on my hands.

It's depressing .. to some extent.. I just hope I get over it soon. It's not jst studies thats lacking.. its a lot more.

St. Patrick's Day

I honestly love this song like crazy, it can just mean soooo much.

Here, comes the cold.
Break out the winter clothes
And find a love to call your own.
You...enter you.
Your cheeks a shade of pink
And the rest of you in powder blue.

Who knows, what will be?
But I'll make you this guarantee...
No way November will see our goodbyes
When it comes to December it's obvious why
No one wants to be alone at Christmas time

In the dark,
on the phone,
You tell me the names of your brothers
And your favorite colors...
I'm learning you.
And when, it snows again
We'll take a walk outside
And search the sky,
like children do (I'll say to you..)

No way November will see our goodbyes
When it comes to December it's obvious why.
No one wants to be alone at Chrismas time.
Come January, we're frozen inside.
Making new resolutions a hundred times
February, won't you be my valentine?
And we'll both be safe till St. Patrick's day.

We should take a ride tonight around the town
And look around at all the beautiful houses.
Something in the way the blue light's on the black night
Can make you feel more
Everybody it seems to me,
Just wants to be,
just like you and me

No one wants to be alone at Christmas time
Come January we're frozen inside
Making new resolutions a hundred times.
February, won't you be my valentine?
And if our always is all that we gave
And we someday, take that away
I'll be alright...if it was just till St. Patrick's Day.

John Mayer's Remarkableness

I know a girl. She puts the color inside of my world. She's just like a maze. Where all of the walls all continually change.
And I've done all I can. To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands. Now I'm starting to see. Maybe it's got nothing to do with me.

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin? It's the same she's been standing in. Since the day she saw him walking away. Now she's left. Cleaning up the mess he made.

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break. You'll find out how much they can take. Boys will be strong. And boys soldier on. But boys would be gone without warmth from A woman's good, good heart.

On behalf of every man. Looking out for every girl. You are the god and the weight of her world. So fathers be good to your daughters.
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too

My Amazing New Found ...'Sexy time'

So I love Stace, but who doesnt know that already.... *wink wink*

hehehe anyways no this blog is not about just her but all the wonderful people I have been around lately that have made me feel sooo wonderful and ... given me just bout the right attention I needed to get my damn feet back on the ground... I am speaking of none other than... Barry, Ritesh, Stacey, Taaha, Mark, Sasha (when she's free :P) and my love ( but you were there from the start so :D double :D:D shout out to you) ... I love you guys. [just adding that bit in- got nothing to do with the title]

This has though..
[It wouldn't have been possible if Sarah didnt decide to celebrate her birthday there so thankyou Sarah]

[ To Barry, Ritesh, Stacey and the rest of the ppl that end up being around us]

I have the most fun around you'll. And it doesnt have to be at some bar.. trying to 'pull of 21' but then forgetting cos we just started having too much fun.. it doesnt have to be with this big plan to drive off somewhere just cos we have a car (Testiment to Ritesh and Barry's *beaten felt* rides) ...and we definately don't need to put on loads of make up to impress the guys in our group...well for me I can be myself and that means the most to me. I'm starting to finally draw this line.. between what I want to be and what I should be and I can do it only cos I have you wonderful people around me.

Checkers was definately amazing! I CANNOT BELIEVE I MADE SUCH A FOOL OF MYSELF AND SANG WE WILL ROCK YOU WITH BARRY and These Boots Are Made For Walking :P (What were we thinking Stace?) WHAT! hahahahah and wait..it gets better.. I randomly went up to two tables and gave them the mic too.. (referring to the group behind us on the far left) ( and then the pinoys who I danced with out of the blue :S) hahahaha!

What I think added to making my day... was at the end of the night.. I went up and said thankyou to Ramil and Fe (the waiters at our table, if you guys hadn't noticed) who served us continuously till 1:00 am on their feet. And I'm pretty sure that made their day by the smile on their faces. :)

Anyways, so this is my new found "Sexytime" spending it with the people I love... not always in the most glamourous way.. but definately the most fun!

Paranoia..

Sometimes, I wonder if I'm paranoid. Most of the time I do have a paranoia.. but it's mainly to do with myself.. I'm constantly vigilant if you must say with myself.. I'm not really alert..but I do a lot of retrospective thinking..What have I done today ? What should I have done? How does what I've done today affect me tmm ?

Call me weird.. but I actually like my paranoia. I mean the only drawback, is I may sometimes end up being too hard on myself.. but then I have my friends to undo the damage that way :)

Basically, there's this movie going on.. Babel. And this one incident in like Morrocco where these 2 kids try out a guy in the mountains and it ends up hitting a tourist bus and killing a foreigner (American) and then.. her kids in another part of the world are deemed as missing cos the maid (whos son's wedding it was) took them to Mexico with her for the wedding and cudnt bring them back cos of complications.. it gets more twisted..cos the guns those boys used in the mountains belongs to a man in korea whose wife died by jumping off a balcony (bt becos he sold the gun to the man in Morrocco) he ends up being questioned.

It just goes to show...that we need to be careful of our actions. Anything we do may have harsh reactions or good repercussions or bad eventualities.. I've personally learnt from this in the past and I ain't about to go down that road again.

Theres' alot of people who may read this blog and think.. What is she on about? Yet others who'd think I'm making too much of something.. Others who'd label me 'Aunty' or 'mum' but I honestly think if majority of us..meaning our generation thought more about what we did before we did it.. I think we'd have much much better.. or if not better def well thought of futures.. whats it called in business/eco.. 'risk minimising' !! ok that's getting a tad bit technical.. but I honestly hope someone gets my drift.

It's just about waking up..knowing what's happening in the world around you and making sure every decision you make in your day is not one that provokes.. a multiplying negative effect. It's hard to predict what may or may not happen in the course of one day or because of something he said..or she said.. but I mean there's always room for a little more thought.. for a little more caution.

:) That's it for now.

A Passionate Pic

Allright dont get me wrong..not trying to be controversial or start up anything but I really like this picture. It's not about being sexual..atleast not to me. It's about what the pic shows..the comfortability between two people..that arises from love.



Love and lust- always like to seperate the two. Lust is like on the other side of the world ...where as love is forthright and everything good.

Everyone has a bit of both in them - you really cant deny it. The point is trying to control the one which brings about the other evil feelings and doings.

to me..and I would think to most other people ..we'd like to belive in Love more.
If it weren't for love..what would make the world go round?

Sorry my thoughts above are not as direct as your average blog..just pinning down thoughts I suppose.

I just really love this pic and I hope noone uses it to judge me on what I do and what I dont believe in.

Some of my favourite Jazz Songs

1. The Girl from Ipanema (Stan Getz and Astrid Gilberto or the Lou Rawls version)
2. Take Five ( Brubeck )
3. Between the Sheets (Fourplay feat. Chaka Khan)
4. Drifti and Cantaloupe Island (by Herbie Hancock)
5. Summertime
6. Popsicle Toes (Diana Krall and Michael Franks)
7. Mack the Knife (the old version and Michael Buble's)
8. This Masquerade (George Benson)
9. Autumn Leaves (Stanley Jordan)
10. Spain (Chick Corea)
11. Thinking about you (Norah Jones and everything by her)
12. Contigo (Greg Howe, Victor Wooten and Dennis Chambers)- any jazz lover would
see these guys as the Jazz Gods
13. Papa was a rolling stone (Chris Botti, Lisa Fischer)
14. Sous le soliel (Hotel Costes)
15. Willow weep for me (Wynton Marsalis)-The chick at the jazz fest sang it too :)
16. All the things you are (Sonny Rollins)
17. Opus de Funk (Horace Silver)
18. Jazzanians (Trio Brubeck)
19. Moon over Bourbon Street (Chris Botti and Sting)
20. Spyro Gyra ( the band)
21. Stiched up- John Mayer and Herbie Hancock

The Recipe of Me

Here's a rather different type of description of myself.. make what you want of it but this is what basically defines me:

My love for 'BugsBunny'(The Human one): 100 Percent.

John Mayer: music, lyrics, blog, guitars, amp ..

Arsenal: to the core..even if they were 25th in the league I'd support them.

Jazz: I breathe jazz. My love for jazz was a creation of a Connoisseur's Jazz Album, started when I was around 6.

Incubus: everything of theirs amazes me. Not just the released rock that you guys hear, but also their contribution to Society through the MYF(Make Yourself Foundation) as well as their fusion covers and jazz (yes jazz/blues/funk) albums.

Lingerie: Anyone who really knows me knows I have an unhealthy obsession for lingerie.. a Pure Victoria's Secret addict, but off late.. have dwelt into other brands (but not to be discussed here ) hush!

Addiction to 'Doude Weekends': Whether every weekend or not,or every fortnight..we have this random hanging out which is nothing interesting but we end up laughing stupidly and end up with similar nicks on msn.

Ice: Major ice chewer. Starbucks, Charleys, Burger King, McDonalds.

And that ends my list of Ingredients.

:D

'The Start of the Week' and Eco Love

Tomorrow starts a new week.. I have no idea what it will bring. My last week was pretty much crap. But I like it because I finally took a day to evaluate myself.. and think about a nickname one of my friends put up saying, 'The only people that you need in life are those that need you in theirs.' This particular statement, phrase.. quote, whatever it is really struck me .. I've been having a rough time getting over certain incidents in my past that I know I called on myself.. but had blown way out of proportion and left me feeling intense contempt for myself and alot of ..insignificance in this world. I did have people to cheer me up ofcourse like the ever optimistic (atleast for me), stay-c, and my wonderful 'Bugs' but I mean at the end of the day... it's about you and how you feel. Anyway, (staggering back to the topic), so I was saying I overcame these feelings. They will come back to haunt me I'm sure.. but I've learnt something from the past- Faith and Belief in myself.

:)

Moving on, ... .... (on a completely different note)...

Economics- As vast a subject as there is... I don't think I would ever come to a point in my life where I could say I know everything there is to know about Economics. Really..it's a beautiful subject but just so vast. I have a love for it even though I pretty much suck at it.. - anything wrong with me?

Why?

Because it's been roughly a year and a half since I stopped blogging. Cos I miss it. Cos I love this world it brings with it. I wont be committed to it, thats for sure. But it'll be there, when I need to vent, frustrate, write, poem about, laugh about, etc...

My Canvas..with the world as my audience.

Shakespeare said the world was a stage..and we were actors..or something like that.. and so this ..is my draft..with my blog as articles of my history.

P.s- I'd like for my name not to be used on this blog ..as much as you can refrain from it. :)

Ode to Ritesh

This is because he was the motivation to my comeback to blogging.