... is this amazing kid who will be turning 2 on July 5th. He is my piano teacher's son and one of the most adorable kid's you will ever meet.
He know's like all the names of all the cars by looking at thier logos.. in fact when I took them for a drive he looked at my steering wheel and squealed 'misibishi' hehe.
HE IS ADORABLE. My name was the first of her student's name's he had learnt.. pronounced Jolala.. hehe which is so cute coming from him .. and guess what, he looked forward to me coming for class and considering I came a lot - that wasnt a problem. When she took him for walks.. he knew where our house was.. and our car park ..and suddenly every car park in Karama.. then became the property of Jolala... .. After class, I'd go over to his play mat and play with toys.. .. neways.. then he learnt, to say Jonthin so now we are known as Jonthin and Jolala..which is quite funny.
Anyways, yest I said goodbye to them cos they left for holiday and will only be back in September..and I wont get to see them till next year which is quite sad. I will dearly miss him.. and not just him, her too. I love my piano teacher.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
summer..
summer has not been fun so far.. well sometimes it has, but not mostly..
mostly it's been this bid to get things done that have been pending in my house... you know, throwing out the hoarded stuff.. the old books, new furniture (yay) .. yet Ive not woken one day feeling its holidays..
I've had so much to do.. and having a countdown honestly makes time go faster..
I do remember, an awesome dinner at Jhonny Carinos where I couldn't stop acting mad and laughing..
I remember meeting an old friend after a year and feeling good bout it.
I remember dropping my friends to the park..
Summer has been alot of driving.. and that's what Ive loved the most..
really, despite many people believing I cant, I do believe I can.. and I love it..
it's been most fun- I've gotten lost.. hahah and I wanted to take everyone on drives so I even made Jason ( a friend of mine who works in Jebel Ali) come all the way from there in his company bus till my house so I could take him for a movie n drop him home :D ooh that was fun..
The Incredible Hulk- I quite enjoyed it.. I really did infact, see, I didn't see the first one..so I had nothing to compare it with which is what made it better for me I guess - it's kinda nice not having expectations. (only to some extent, dont quote me on this one)
Summer so far, has also been shopping... and mandy becky time..which Ive wanted for sooo long.. Becky's gotten too comfy in my car..I must say. hahha!
ooh yay, I started this new blog thinking of how bad summer's been so far.. but its been pretty okay... except for the regrettable always having stuff to do argh..
Summer was... 'Edge'. heheh
mostly it's been this bid to get things done that have been pending in my house... you know, throwing out the hoarded stuff.. the old books, new furniture (yay) .. yet Ive not woken one day feeling its holidays..
I've had so much to do.. and having a countdown honestly makes time go faster..
I do remember, an awesome dinner at Jhonny Carinos where I couldn't stop acting mad and laughing..
I remember meeting an old friend after a year and feeling good bout it.
I remember dropping my friends to the park..
Summer has been alot of driving.. and that's what Ive loved the most..
really, despite many people believing I cant, I do believe I can.. and I love it..
it's been most fun- I've gotten lost.. hahah and I wanted to take everyone on drives so I even made Jason ( a friend of mine who works in Jebel Ali) come all the way from there in his company bus till my house so I could take him for a movie n drop him home :D ooh that was fun..
The Incredible Hulk- I quite enjoyed it.. I really did infact, see, I didn't see the first one..so I had nothing to compare it with which is what made it better for me I guess - it's kinda nice not having expectations. (only to some extent, dont quote me on this one)
Summer so far, has also been shopping... and mandy becky time..which Ive wanted for sooo long.. Becky's gotten too comfy in my car..I must say. hahha!
ooh yay, I started this new blog thinking of how bad summer's been so far.. but its been pretty okay... except for the regrettable always having stuff to do argh..
Summer was... 'Edge'. heheh
Friday, June 20, 2008
Boards done
so....tana..... my boards are done.. at last.
Once again, it's been a month since Ive penned aka typed out bits of my life..
It feels like I can breathe again, and yet, not so much.
I had fun today. Jhonny Carino's was funnnnnnnnnnnnnnn fun fun
had heaps n heaps of fun and I love Barry's driving- he absolutely economise petrol though so don't bother letting him drive if u have like that 1/2 inch of petrol left :P but otherwise we're good. stuffed 8 people in his car today and laughed our asses offffff like mad people in a moving truck :P it was like our old days again, where it didn't matter what we did or where we did it as long as we all hung out together :) :D
till next time cos Im way toooo tired
Once again, it's been a month since Ive penned aka typed out bits of my life..
It feels like I can breathe again, and yet, not so much.
I had fun today. Jhonny Carino's was funnnnnnnnnnnnnnn fun fun
had heaps n heaps of fun and I love Barry's driving- he absolutely economise petrol though so don't bother letting him drive if u have like that 1/2 inch of petrol left :P but otherwise we're good. stuffed 8 people in his car today and laughed our asses offffff like mad people in a moving truck :P it was like our old days again, where it didn't matter what we did or where we did it as long as we all hung out together :) :D
till next time cos Im way toooo tired
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Beautiful People
Very recently, a young girl died at our school due to heart problems that were (as I have heard) hereditary. How does one cope with a loss like that?
All I can do is pray for her mum .. who has lost her husband, 2 sons and now her only daughter to the same 'hereditary' problem. What stood out about her is her uniqueness, and her kindness.. everyone who misses her have spoken about it.
This made me thing of other people I've lost..
Just the November before last, I had a close friend who passed away. I missed him soo much, cos he'd take my brother and I to church every saturday in his car, he was only 21.. everything he had done in his life... he had done himself. He passed away due to Cancer. I still miss him, when I pass his house, when I see his mum, when I see his brother, when I see any Peugeot 307 infact... I love him as a person. He never knew when his life would be over, it was always an uncertain day- anything could happen any time. He was amazing, so humble, he never complained about what he went through... people who knew his story ..I think they saw him differently .. but minus that he was just like any of my friends.. wanting to go out to the same places... what stood out was his love for God though. It was different from any other friend I've known and it made him love himself and everyone else in a unbiased unjudgmental way.
Last summer, I lost my grandma, and I miss her so much. When I was young I used to write to her and fill the page with 'I love you's' that Meant So Much. In every 'I love you' there was an I miss you included and a hug... and the smell of her that I missed so much. She was amazing.. well to me =) She still is.. I know she prays for me.. I know she is proud of me.. I forget her sometimes.. in the course of my mundane life.. but she doesn't forget me. I'm sure. When she left us, it felt like the end of a huge era.. yet the next day life went on.. cars moved.. birds flew.. sun was shining.. it was tough. We were there by her side all the time when we went to visit. What I saw was incredible- the relationship between my mum and her mum. Growing up, she took care of my mum, and now it was my mum who was taking care of her. It was a beautiful thing to see. I can't even explain it. There was a conection between them.. that was remarkable. Now she's gone but I'm never going to forget any of this. What stood out about her was she was Always giving.. to anyone, everyone.. she had the biggest heart and she did Everything for her family. And I'm not just saying that, even her local butcher, shopkeeper, shoe seller - they all respected her because she made the effort to be kind to all of them. I love her. Anything I did to upset her, I wish I hadn't.
Here's to the people we've loved and lost due to the inevitable.
I want to have 'what stood out about me'.. factors one day too. I don't want to be just another.. somebody. I hope I can accomplish that somehow somewhere along the way.
(p.s- i love you nana)
All I can do is pray for her mum .. who has lost her husband, 2 sons and now her only daughter to the same 'hereditary' problem. What stood out about her is her uniqueness, and her kindness.. everyone who misses her have spoken about it.
This made me thing of other people I've lost..
Just the November before last, I had a close friend who passed away. I missed him soo much, cos he'd take my brother and I to church every saturday in his car, he was only 21.. everything he had done in his life... he had done himself. He passed away due to Cancer. I still miss him, when I pass his house, when I see his mum, when I see his brother, when I see any Peugeot 307 infact... I love him as a person. He never knew when his life would be over, it was always an uncertain day- anything could happen any time. He was amazing, so humble, he never complained about what he went through... people who knew his story ..I think they saw him differently .. but minus that he was just like any of my friends.. wanting to go out to the same places... what stood out was his love for God though. It was different from any other friend I've known and it made him love himself and everyone else in a unbiased unjudgmental way.
Last summer, I lost my grandma, and I miss her so much. When I was young I used to write to her and fill the page with 'I love you's' that Meant So Much. In every 'I love you' there was an I miss you included and a hug... and the smell of her that I missed so much. She was amazing.. well to me =) She still is.. I know she prays for me.. I know she is proud of me.. I forget her sometimes.. in the course of my mundane life.. but she doesn't forget me. I'm sure. When she left us, it felt like the end of a huge era.. yet the next day life went on.. cars moved.. birds flew.. sun was shining.. it was tough. We were there by her side all the time when we went to visit. What I saw was incredible- the relationship between my mum and her mum. Growing up, she took care of my mum, and now it was my mum who was taking care of her. It was a beautiful thing to see. I can't even explain it. There was a conection between them.. that was remarkable. Now she's gone but I'm never going to forget any of this. What stood out about her was she was Always giving.. to anyone, everyone.. she had the biggest heart and she did Everything for her family. And I'm not just saying that, even her local butcher, shopkeeper, shoe seller - they all respected her because she made the effort to be kind to all of them. I love her. Anything I did to upset her, I wish I hadn't.
Here's to the people we've loved and lost due to the inevitable.
I want to have 'what stood out about me'.. factors one day too. I don't want to be just another.. somebody. I hope I can accomplish that somehow somewhere along the way.
(p.s- i love you nana)
Monday, May 19, 2008
Past
Okay, here's the blog where I actually blog, cos I feel like just speaking my mind and I'm in a somewhat calm state compared to my usual disposition and I'm able to to take in my surroundings.
The past two months have been a blur, I really don't know where I've been or what I've been doing. I don't know what I've eaten, can't remember what I've read, don't remember where I drove, don't remember going to class, can't figure out what I taught the kids, can't remember who came for piano classes, don't remember playin the piano and don't remember what I did on weekends. Oddly, though, all that I've mentioned is all that I've done in the last 2 months. Where has my mind been?
In this other galaxy. Meaning, I've done exactly what I'm Not supposed to do. I've worried. I've thought about the past sooo many times. A good blog of Ritesh's that I particularly like, (http://withoutanoilwell.blogspot.com/2008/03/dwell-in-past.html) speaks about how we dwell so much in the past, and I found the reason why I've been doing it- the answer too is in his blog,
"It's not easy not to dwell in your past that you hope is your present and remains your future forever. The whole fact that one wants to live in the past is because the present is not one bit he/she wants it to be." (courtesy Ritesh J.)
Again, ironically enough I replied to that blog commenting that I did dwell in the past and sought to change so I don't miss out on the future and here I am admitting defeat to what's hardly as capable as I think. I referred to a quote(sticker) that says:
'sometimes we need to analyzing the [past]..stop planning the [future]..stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel...stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel...Sometimes we just have to go with whatever happens, happens.'
Putting it more into perspective- I don't agree with the above statement completely. Yes we can't dwell soo much that we lose out on the present as noted. But we do need to stop and smell the roses.. or so to speak, stop and take in what's going on. You shouldnt decide what your heart should feel, let it decide for you.. most of the time it's right. You can't always go with 'whatever happens, happens' because according to the great William Tell (nt sure of this, I may be wrong) it is the only way to be 'masters of our fate, captain of or souls'...
I guess it does matter though, that I do recognise what I've been doing and recognise that the time I've spent dwelling on the past is time that Could Have been spent to better my future.
...
and so I will make more effort to shorten that 'added' waste of time.
The past two months have been a blur, I really don't know where I've been or what I've been doing. I don't know what I've eaten, can't remember what I've read, don't remember where I drove, don't remember going to class, can't figure out what I taught the kids, can't remember who came for piano classes, don't remember playin the piano and don't remember what I did on weekends. Oddly, though, all that I've mentioned is all that I've done in the last 2 months. Where has my mind been?
In this other galaxy. Meaning, I've done exactly what I'm Not supposed to do. I've worried. I've thought about the past sooo many times. A good blog of Ritesh's that I particularly like, (http://withoutanoilwell.blogspot.com/2008/03/dwell-in-past.html) speaks about how we dwell so much in the past, and I found the reason why I've been doing it- the answer too is in his blog,
"It's not easy not to dwell in your past that you hope is your present and remains your future forever. The whole fact that one wants to live in the past is because the present is not one bit he/she wants it to be." (courtesy Ritesh J.)
Again, ironically enough I replied to that blog commenting that I did dwell in the past and sought to change so I don't miss out on the future and here I am admitting defeat to what's hardly as capable as I think. I referred to a quote(sticker) that says:
'sometimes we need to analyzing the [past]..stop planning the [future]..stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel...stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel...Sometimes we just have to go with whatever happens, happens.'
Putting it more into perspective- I don't agree with the above statement completely. Yes we can't dwell soo much that we lose out on the present as noted. But we do need to stop and smell the roses.. or so to speak, stop and take in what's going on. You shouldnt decide what your heart should feel, let it decide for you.. most of the time it's right. You can't always go with 'whatever happens, happens' because according to the great William Tell (nt sure of this, I may be wrong) it is the only way to be 'masters of our fate, captain of or souls'...
I guess it does matter though, that I do recognise what I've been doing and recognise that the time I've spent dwelling on the past is time that Could Have been spent to better my future.
...
and so I will make more effort to shorten that 'added' waste of time.
Better
Everyday the doubts build up,
the questions never stop.
I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
then I met you.
Will I make it through?
Do I have what it takes to get by?
Am I really geared for what awaits me?
I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
then I met you.
Can I survive on my own?
Am I capable of making decisions without facing serious repercussions?
The doubt has built up so much that it starts to seep into my thoughts,
CAN 'I' do it?
I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
then I met you.
Your pulling me up for every little thing,
You dont think I can handle the inevitable.
You dont pull me from the wreckage,
You push me down further, and then stand on top,
watching me struggle out.
Which I can do...
but then again,
I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
then I met you.
You've always wanted her.
I've felt it from the look in your eyes.
So it wasn't new to my ears when you said it out loud.
But, I was suprised you did say it out loud.
I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
then I met you.
You want me to be her.
Smart, Obedient, Attentive, Diligent,
Perfect in every way- in your eyes.
The one you never had.
but I won't. I am me.
Although,
I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
I met you...
and I've been driven to be better than her
but in my own way.
the questions never stop.
I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
then I met you.
Will I make it through?
Do I have what it takes to get by?
Am I really geared for what awaits me?
I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
then I met you.
Can I survive on my own?
Am I capable of making decisions without facing serious repercussions?
The doubt has built up so much that it starts to seep into my thoughts,
CAN 'I' do it?
I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
then I met you.
Your pulling me up for every little thing,
You dont think I can handle the inevitable.
You dont pull me from the wreckage,
You push me down further, and then stand on top,
watching me struggle out.
Which I can do...
but then again,
I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
then I met you.
You've always wanted her.
I've felt it from the look in your eyes.
So it wasn't new to my ears when you said it out loud.
But, I was suprised you did say it out loud.
I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
then I met you.
You want me to be her.
Smart, Obedient, Attentive, Diligent,
Perfect in every way- in your eyes.
The one you never had.
but I won't. I am me.
Although,
I used to know where I was going,
I used to think I could be something,
I met you...
and I've been driven to be better than her
but in my own way.
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